Definitely not a Comfortable Birthday!

Entering into a different year is totally a different feel. For almost all people- it would be most memorable day of their total year. They get prepared from at least a week prior to it, shopping, planning to keep out from all commitments, and if possible, seeking for a leave. And then finally the day arrives- Friends knocking the door at 12, lifting the birthday boy high up in the air, showing him the breeze he has never seen by speeding on bikes/cars on empty streets, spending the precious time with their valentine, hugging their better halves and needless to say, there are many more things in which a boy gets into a different year. None of them have happened so far in my life- yes.  However I have had few birthday bumps, and few surprise gifts from my sibling and my friends though.

Coming to this years birthday, yes I have lost one of the most important persons in my life good ten days before my birthday. Yes it won't "Happy" birthday, and irrespective of how happy I am, I will be turning 21. I'm done with my most happy days of my life, a good 3 days prior to my birthday. However, the pain and untold tears of losing close person has totally made me forget about the latter, but yes- I am going to miss my college days. And two days prior to my birthday- depression attacks me big time- like never before.

Lump in the throat, buckets of untold tears, few tears ready to run out of eyes, sweat, humidity, few shameless people who spoil a good car drive with their mindless behavior on road, driving an overloaded car with no power steering and no pick up, petrol key of bike stolen and me identifying it at no mans land and above all- all frustrations shown at me. This sums up my day.

Had I lived a normal life, I'd have even bothered about all of these. I wouldn't have complained. But the way my life has been in the past fortnight, I sometimes feel why on earth I am given such a situation to handle in life.

Yes, few things in my life have given adequate happiness to overcome depression of such kinds in the past, but in my current position, I can neither achieve those things nor I can be normal with the things going in my life, but all I have in mind is one simple question- Peace of mind is what I wish for, is it too much to ask?

EMD GT46PAC hits the Dreams too!

People dream.

People of age 20 dream about their girlfriends.

People of age 20 dream about their crushes.

People of age 20 dream about their acads.

People of age 20 dream about their future.

Not very often people of that age dream about "a railway engine."

Probably if there is something which I like and its impossible for me to do, then it should be riding the locomotive made in heaven- EMD GT46PAC.

WDP4 homed at KRISHNARAJAPURAM pulls the Vishakapatnam bound Janmabhoomi Express

Garden on Wheels.

22203 Vishakapatnam Secunderabad Duronto Express negotiates Raigir Curve.

My Engineering Life!

October 6th, 2010- Being in the euphoria of Indian close win against Australia with heroics of Hyderabad guys VVS Laxman and Pragyan Ojha, I thought I would be in a similar position to what the person who took me to my Engineering College was- once my engineering would be finished. "ORIENTATION PROGRAM"- a big banner was put up- various speeches including ones which somewhat inspired me were heard. The National Anthem of India was sung at the end, which was quite surprising.

If there were two people who were in every situation of me of my B. Tech life, then these are the ones I lived every bit of my Engineering life with! Thankyou Sree Ram and Praveen.

However, as they say- Picture Abhi Baaki Hein Mere Dost! I came across many situations where I thought life ahead was black.

I won many situations.

I experienced first bunk.

I learnt C Language.

I made friends for life.

I learnt to ride a two wheeler.

I learnt to convince elders for taking me to different city for seeing a practice cricket match.

I experienced MMTS (first time).

I experienced driving far away from home just to eat food.

I experienced fight.

I experienced losing.

I learnt to be loyal.

I learnt to digest last moment changes.

I learnt JNTU sucks.

I experienced low attendance.

I learnt how to talk to a girl.

I experienced emergency.

I experienced sisters marriage.

I learnt "revenge is sweet, especially if its against university".

I experienced Alpha Biryani.

I learnt to travel, all by myself.

I learnt how to tackle tough academic situations.

I learnt how to tackle tough situations in life.

I experienced unconditional care from friend(s).

I learnt to let go.

I went to train spotting (first time).

I pulled people's legs.

I went to a friends home to celebrate his birthday at midnight.

I got birthday bumps.

I experienced IPL cricket match with friends.

I experienced just pass.

I experienced Subrahmanya Ghats.

I experienced unexpected shocks.

I experienced loneliness

I learnt how to capture a train.

I met many ferroequinologists.

I learnt to meet new people.

I learnt how to click.

I experienced pin bowling.

I learnt to say no.

I learnt to console a person.

I learnt to write 250 pages in a single day.

I traveled- traveled and traveled.

I learnt to live with people whom I do not like.

I touched a 3 day old baby.

I went to snow capped places.

I experienced Andhra Pradesh Express and Kerala Express.

I learnt how to manage things- all by myself.

I told lies at home.

I experienced what it feels to hear “But he loves me a lot” from the one I loved.

I experienced last moment study.

I became official bachelor.

I learnt to do project including documentation- all by myself.

I experienced Dudhsagar.

I went to Goa with friend.

I experienced betrayal.

I learnt "just like all five fingers aren't the same- everyones life isn't the same".

I learnt to ride bike after having slept just for 3 hours previous night.

I experienced loneliness.

I experienced night out.

I experienced happiness.

I experienced Raigir.

I experienced loco failure.

I experienced celebrating trains birthday.

I experienced Bangalore Rajdhani Express.

I experienced Tiruchchirappalli's Rock fort temple.

I traveled 20,000 KMs in a single year just on trains.

I experienced buying a project.

I experienced team work.

I learnt to visit Mumbai and understood how hard the life is.

I traveled in Mandovi Express.

I learnt how to write and organize a blog by myself.

I made apps.

I got placed in a company.

I got all my project reviews done.

I learnt how to admit mistakes.

I learnt how to manage the damage done.

I learnt how to tackle tough situations in your life just a day before your AgniPareeksha.

I learnt how to be a better person.

I learnt to be me.

I learnt to love me, my habits.


If you have come all the way upto here, thankyou.